Lesson from a wish

It’s been more than a week since I was accepted to be a member of a group of people which involved in strengthening, helping and caring other needless-sick people. I chose to mark that step as one of my precious moments. I remember made a wish to help these people many years ago.
At that time, my close friend had reminded me about all the problems, obstacles and consequences which would come after my decision. As usual, my compassion moved beyond my logic and prediction and I still agreed with the idea and let the wish forgotten.

Nowadays, the wish finally become real through unpredictable events and people, then I know how my life is so affected just like my friend told me. Some important consequences I should overcome are about completing knowledge and keeping secrets. Completing information gaps on the data and facts might not be a problem but continuing secrecy of the information afterwards become a crucial thing. It’s look like I begin to walk on a different world, see with different eyes, and try to think many complicated things.
It seems that I should learn to be a different person at any time when it’s needed. For me, life will never be the same as before again.

I figure out that sometimes we can’t trust our own reflection in the mirror. Even though the reflection shows all scars and smiles on our face, only heart knows what is hidden inside. We have various masks to put on our face at various situations. Grinds and laughs when we want to forget our sadness and pain, or anger and tears when we want to hide our weakness and loneliness.
I learn that we can never lie to ourselves though we can hide away from other people. Just be honest to our own heart and we can be safe. People may judge us from our appearance and problems, but they don’t have rights to decide our happiness in the future.
I also learn that even though sometimes it’s hard to leave our past and we want to give up today, but still we can dream for tomorrow. The helping hands will never end and there will always be a light for everyone who wants to survive in their journey.


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I slept and dreamed that life was a joy
I awoke and saw that life was a service
I acted and behold, service was a joy (R. Tagore)

You let me choose this way, O Lord,
I beg You to be with me always.